When I was 25, I honestly believed I should start a fund for botox injections for when I hit the big 3-0. Well, now I’m 6 month into my 30th year, and I have not saved one dollar for botox. Life plan fail. But, I have been taking my skin care routine much more seriously this past year. I’ve noticed lines on my face not going away, the skin around my eyes is becoming more thin, along with many other noticeable changes. So, I decided to jump onboard with Estee Lauder and get serious about what goes on my skin. I am absolutely loving my new routine! If I can do my best to freeze what lines and wrinkles, then I’ll be okay….until I can afford botox!
Ever since I took the plunge, or rather; the plunge into analyzing every single line of my face, I’ve noticed it in other people too. When I look at someone, I think “how old are they?, what do they use on their skin? do they moisturize?” It’s an endless monologue in my brain that does not stop. I wonder if other women obsess about their skin they way I do? Do we all walk around thinking these thoughts, and we just don’t admit it? I know it seems narcissistic, and maybe it is. I don’t want to look like a Barbie, I just want to look like how I feel on the inside. I want my heart to match my skin.
I think, wait I know, I’ll feel this same way at 80. I will probably still feel young, but there will be lines and wrinkles that prove I’m not.
Beauty is not only skin deep. So, maybe our hearts get lines and wrinkles too.